Splashing In Puddles of Sand

Buns of steel...Mind of playdoh

Have I mentioned the diet plan yet? We were lying in bed one night watching tv and I said that I wanted to lose weight but it's hard to stay motivated. I'm a really competetive person though, so me and Spoon decided since we both want to lose weight, we would do it together. So the goal is that we both lose 15lbs in 3 months. So by the end of October we want to have lost it all...between 10-15lbs. We dont want to over-do it so we decided we want to get to a place where we are happy and feel healthy, if I decide my body is perfect when I lose 10lbs then I will stop there (notice how I said my BODY-because I, of course, am already perfect!!!) Althougth I think by the end of October I'll only have lost 10lbs but that'll be good. Then we are gonna reward ourselves and go to New York! yay! The one thing I love about myself is that I know no matter how skinny or how fat I will ever be, I truely do believe I am beautiful. Both on the outside and on the inside. No matter what weight you are, some things are always gonna look good on you and some things are not. You have to accept your flaws and realize that you have to live with them.

It's funny how perceptions are so relative. Nothing is concrete when it comes to our eyes and our brains and the way they work together to form our opinions. One day we can think we are perfect in every way and the next you catch a glimpse of yourself in a store window and you don't know what you should criticize first. What makes our minds change what our eyes see? Does it depend on our surroundings...if there are tons of hot perfectly toned women around us then we feel like we are less amazing than if we are surrounded by ugly people? Does it depend on how many guys stare at us? Or is it just whatever insecurities come to the surface at a given time? I dont know if we can ever avoid changing our opinons on ourselves--come on, we are women, we have to narrow our choices down from about 5 outfits to one--every day!!!!

But what I am saying is if it is so hard to hold a steady perception of ourselves, do we hold the same standards when we judge other people? Do we make first impressions and keep them, or do we change our mind with every new glimpse of a person? I tend to judge people and I decide whether I like them or not. But do I give them the opportunity to prove my judgement wrong? In our minds do we allow people to be innocent before proven guilty? Can we form one opinion of someone and then allow them to change our minds? Or do we keep our opinion of them solid, no matter what they do? I'm not sure if my point is that we should try to judge ourselves less, or put less importance on first impressions...maybe I have no point. Maybe I will make one but change it in the blink of an eye...

posted by Oreo @ 2:55 AM