Splashing In Puddles of Sand

Letter to a Loved One

Here's where Andy's blog led my train of thought...

Fix You is probably one of my favorite Coldplay songs...and I have ALL of Coldplay's cds! It funny how fate throws you exactly what you need at the exact time. I wonder if I would like this song so much if I had heard it at a 'happy' time in my life. I might still like it, but it would not have all the sentimental value it has with me now. Here's why...

When you get what you want, but not what you need

Right now I'm getting exactly what I want...well...what I asked for. But what I NEED is for situations to be changed, for there to be no distance between us, for our lives to be on the same page, heading in the same direction. What I NEED is to feel your arm around me at night, to be able to pull it back around me if it strays when I move to pull the blankets around me. I know the decision I made is right...but that doesn't stop it from hurting.


And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
could it be worse?

One of my biggest fears is that I will never find love like what we had. I know I'm young, and it really is my first experience with it, but what if this is the real thing...and I'm afraid that it is and that I am throwing it away, and that I will never find it again. I don't want to regret this stupid decision for the rest of my life....but it is better to have loved and lost than never loved at all...right? I've lost you...everything we had has gone to wast because of me...could it be worse?


I promise you I will learn from my mistakes

I don't want to hurt you anymore. But no matter what happens, I promise I'll learn from it....

posted by Oreo @ 9:51 PM