Secret Lives
Andy posted about Postsecret one day and I've been hooked to it ever since.It's a website that is so emotionally raw. You see happiness, sadness, fear, reluctance, regret, coyness, embarassment, every kind of emotion imaginable...the only thing they all have in common is honesty.
Sometimes I wish I could live my life, even live a DAY being 100% honest--both with myself and others. I dont really lie excessively but sometimes it seems so easy to just elaborate, or make yourself feel better by lying, or make yourself look better or seem better. Sometimes you dont just want to admit you're spending another Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday alone.
So I like that this website lets people be honest. Even if they cant do it in front of their own friends and family, they're letting it out to someone.
Here's one that reminded me of myself. It's one that I would have sent in, or something someone who knows me would think I would send in...looks like I'm not the only one afraid of love :)
posted by Oreo @ 11:24 PM
4 Comments:
oh, i thought i had killed it first.
I'm not sure if I like the way you say "i dont want people to know I am alone."
It is something I have had to work on for awhile, as you know. Now, I am not afraid to be alone. I love being alone, I love knowing that I am strong enough to be on my own.
You arent alone, Rhona. You have friends, but you are going through a period of transition. Its only natural that you feel a little too far ahead, or a little too left behind. But regardless, you should never consider this as "alone" in a negative sense.
Alone is about being in control of your own choices, and being able to rough it when the going gets tough.
And I just cant see that as being a negative. I think its a positive.
I'm not afraid of it and you shouldnt be either.
Because you know full well that when you are on the road, and you are feeling LONELY (not alone), you can always walk up to someone and begin to chat. This is a skill that some people dont have.
Dont confuse LONELY with ALONE.
They are two separate concepts and have often been miscontrued.
I am happy to say that yes, I am alone. But I am also able to put my hand up every now and then and say "I feel lonely today."
Mi--maybe you did kill cupid first. haha. Let's not fight about it though! haha, we can both take credit for it!
Kate--I never said 'I dont want people to feel that I'm alone'...it was meant as more of a general statement, not necessarily about me but being applied to people in general.
Right now I'm NOT feeling lonely, but I AM feeling alone...but not negatively. I feel alone, but I'm at the point where I realize that this is where I am in my life and it is just transition and like you said it's natural that I feel too far ahead/behind but I dont really feel sorry for myself about it. It's where I am now, but I know I wont be here forever...in fact, I'm almost feeling used to being alone now :)
Right now, I feel as though there is nothing more powerful than knowing that it doesnt matter what happens, I will be okay. Its a product of being happy with being alone.
God luv yer!
Not long to go now!
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