Emotional Cycles
Experience is one thing you can't get for nothing.Oscar Wilde
I've been finding myself getting caught up in an emotional cycle lately. I get somewhere, and the first day there I start wondering what I'm doing, why I'm travelling, what I'm trying to find/understand/learn/get away from. And I know it's because I'm alone and have no one with me...Then I'll spend the next couple of days meeting people, having fun, and not thinking about the deep stuff. I dont like the days I start thinking...they just seem to get my down I guess. So I'm having a bit of a low moment, but considering I haven't had any really so far I can deal with it. I've been out drinking for the last 2 nights, i think I've gotten a total of about 8 hours sleep in 2 nights, and i have spent the last 8 hours on a bus so right now I'm not feeling to happy. And I found out I have to write an essay for one of my college applications and it has to be sent in over the next couple of weeks..so now I have that to do when I'm at the other side of the world and have to pay for internet acces. Wonderful.
I actually wasn't going to blog because this isn't really a reflection of the way I am feeling, just what I'm going through right now. Does that make sense? I dont want to blog about something depressing and annoying because in all honesty I havent had a care in the world over the last week, and blogging about this makes it seem bigger than it is. I'm just tired and grumpy right now. Seriously though, I was lying on the beach yesterday and for the first time in months I had nothing going through my head. It's amazing. Especially for me since I tend to analyze every situation.
I have had a couple of really cool days up in Bay of Islands. I went sand duning--absolutely cool, lay on the beach a lot, and like i already mentioned, drank a lot. haha. Lots of men on the scene as well which is always a plus :D I'm missing one of my hot buddies J cuz I had to leave him :( He's hot! jaja. dont worry, i have pics though! hehehe.
Anyway I am going to go think about things some more...or else forget about them, which ever happens first....ahh, see, this is such a depressing post! NO! I dont want that! HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!!!
NEW ZEALAND ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!
posted by Oreo @ 4:55 AM
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Hey, I just wanted to share with you part of a post that I wrote on my blog on September 30 last year.... it will really make sense to you, and give you some comfort to know that everyone has their bad days travelling.... so dont feel guilty!
"........there is something special about backpacking. Even on your worst days, when you want to be home with family, life can take a turn for the better, with just a simple conversation with strangers. I was grumpy and annoyed when I climbed onto my second train for the day, in Milan, when I sat across from two American girls from Wisconsin. After talking to Ashley and Angie for a couple of hours, they convinced me to not go to Interlaken straight away, but to come along with them to a place on the Swiss/France border, called Gryon. Gryon ended up being the most beautiful mountain village, and with Angie and Ashley, I stayed up in amongst the Swiss Alps in the friendliest hostel (ie. Mountain Chalet) for two nights. My Mosquito Blues disappeared as I spent my days wandering around the Alpine villages and my nights sitting around a bonfire with twenty other backpackers, toasting marshmellows. In between that, we even visited thermal baths, where we all swam relaxed in heated pools and spas in the open air (3 degree temperatures outside the water) looking across the Swiss Alps. The fact that I was at my lowest, missing home, missing my family, and then meeting two strangers on a train, my journey took an extraordinary turn for the better. It was a fun three days all up, three days that may not have occured had I not met Ashley and Angie....."
Its the worst days that make you appreciate the best...
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