Splashing In Puddles of Sand

***Waiting To Be Told I'll Be Alright***

So in the run up to my leaving I sit here, in front of my computer because it means I can briefly escape the reality of packing and saying goodbye and leaving. Yes that's right, I've reached the inevitable 'turn back' stage. Things were going so well, but I knew that eventually I'd crash into the stage I'm at. It's unavoidable. I start to question what I am doing, why I am doing it, I get scared...and I'm surprised it only hit 24 hours before take off...maybe I'm stronger than I thought :) I was sure I'd be plagued by these ill-feelings for a few days. So on the one hand good for me, I didn't get too freaked out. On the other hand, now I AM freaked out... hmm.....

Anyway, it's an inevitable stage, of course at some point I'll have a couple of doubts, and considering these are the first doubts since I paid for my tickets a long 2 months ago I know what I'm about to do is what I WANT to do, but that doesn't help the quick flash of fear I'm dealing with right now...

Oh well, I think this is a little bit of fear that's getting blown out of proportion because I haven't slept enough over the last couple of nights...too much partying. So I'll have to end this little blog entry here and get some sleep!

posted by Oreo @ 11:01 PM