Splashing In Puddles of Sand

Hold in the tears and walk away

So I had to say goodbye to Will the other day. It was harder than I thought. The whole time I was with him we both knew that we had limited time...that we would have to say goodbye after 2 weeks....but we got so used to having each other around that not having him feels like I am missing an extension of my body. I dont have him sleeping next to me, eating with me, in the car with me... We were texting one another yesterday saying how much we missed each other....its strange. No one's ever come into my life and changed it in 2 weeks. Nothing's ever felt so right. I've never met anyone that just affected me as much as he has....I cant get him off my mind. I cant stop smiling thinking about him. I didnt stop smiling the whole 2 weeks I was with him....ahhhh it wrecks my head, because the last thing I want is to have fallen for someone who isn't around...but I think I'm in control enough of my emotions to be alright...

I'm in Oz now...with my friend Rory. It's strange. (Everything feels strange today...I need to use a new word!) I've been here 3 days and dont really know when I am leaving. I have no plan. dont know where i am going next. It's cool seeing rory...after 5 minutes things felt like I'd been here for weeks...things felt like we'd never been apart, even though its about a year since we last saw one another. Old friends are good :) BUT I havent seen that much of her. The whole time she's either been working or she gets home from work and her and her boyfriend just disappear into a room (they've been having break-up issues) and I just feel like I havent gotten to spend any time with her. And she's going back to Honduras in a month...and I might leave the gold coast next week and she's working the whole time and it just frustrates me feeling like I came to see her and I wont. I guess I am maybe feeling a little resentful. I have been hanging out with her friends more than her. When we do hang out, her boyfriend comes along and they act all coupley and I just wonder what I'm doing there...and why I didnt just go out with her flat mates instead. I guess I just need to vent and there's no one to talk to here.

So I dont know where I am going next...was thinking of cairns but there was a hurricane so it might not be a good idea...not really sure...ok i am getting sleepy, this place is too hot! hehe. thats it for now....

posted by Oreo @ 5:16 AM