Thinking About Stuff...
I have a lot to think about right now...I guess now that I am settled into a job I have realized how much I need to think about. If I know I dont want to do my job forever, then how long should I do it for? How will I ever know what I want to do and where I want to take my life. Will I ever stop thinking that I want to live in London or New York or Belfast and just GO already? Will I ever find something that I absolutely love with all my LIFE and know that I was SUPPOSED to be doing that? Will it take years of work before I wake up one day and realize I love what I do, or will I know it from the second I walk into the job?
I guess I have spent so long loving the way I am...loving that I take things on the spur of the moment, and I dont plan, and I dont think, and I LOVE the way things just always work out the way they are supposed to. But now for once I wish I had a PLAN. I wish I knew what I was doing with my life. I wish I knew where I was going. I wish I had some stability.
Maybe there is something to be said about just settling down and getting married and having kids. It grounds you. You know that at the end of every day you will have your husband and your kids and your home and your soccer mom car and you will have to get up the next day to make lunches and get breakfast ready and get the kids to school. I've never really wanted THAT life before...but right now I'm kind of sick of my own philosophy...
1 Comments:
no marriage.. no kids for me!! lol..
just a full samantha sex and the city life!
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