Driving home for Christmas
So tomorrow morning I am going 'home' for Christmas. Ok I'm going to my aunt's house for a couple days. In the last 4 year I have spent Christmas in 3 different places--at my real home in Honduras, in Coffs Harbour in Australia, and at the Murphy's where I was last year and where I will be tomorrow.I can't really think of anything to blog about today...except that one of my friends at work got engaged last night. She's 21 as well but seems so much more...mature...than I do. I look at myself and I'm still a kid...I play jokes around the office and I hop around sucking attention out of everyone and I just feel so...YOUNG. There's so much I want to see in the world, so much I want to do. I see Emma and it's like she doesn't care about what is out there, who is out there...she doesn't mind sitting and working at a desk for the rest of her life, getting married, buying a house, having kids, settling down.
And I'm not judging her for wanting to settle down but I just don't understand it. I think I will always aspire to more. I don't know what I want to do with my life but I know I'll be successful at it because I can't just be normal, ordinary, regular. I need to excel. So the thoughts of being 21 and knowing everything that is ahead of you in life scares me...no, confuses me. I guess if I still stand in front of an aisle of shampoo and cant decide which brand to buy, how could I find a man I want to keep around for the next, like, 60 years! hahaha. That sums up my point very well :)
Anyway, so like I said, I'll be going away for Christmas, so I wont be blogging for a couple of days...till Monday maybe. Hope everyone has a great weekend!
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
posted by Oreo @ 6:15 PM
2 Comments:
merry christmas to you too!!!
I could never think of getting married in the next few years. I know that I still have so much growing up to do before I'm ready for that. I wouldn't say that I'm 'immature' - 'cause that carries a negative connotation - but I'm definitely not mature enough for marriage. I also feel like I have so much to do before I 'settle down.' There's so much out there to see and do - and if I get married before I see and do those things - I know I won't be as happy as I could be.
Well I hope you had a good Christmas holiday!
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