Splashing In Puddles of Sand

The Long Trek

Today Brian and I were talking about my trip in February. I was talking about how it's something I want to do, something I need to do, but it still worries me. He then decided to compile a list of negative personality traits that will benefit me in the long run...or at least in the long trek away :) (My trip is now being referred to as the long trek because when I turned what he was saying into my own words I decided I was perfect and didn't need to change anything...ever....he quickly sorted me out and told me changes have to be made in the long run, but not to change my negative qualities until after the trek!)

I decided I needed to blog about these negativities (new word?!) because I liked his point. *Note some of these traits are not always negative, but in my case, they can be!

I'm determined, independent, controlling. All these in a bad way. If I hear something I dont like I fight it. If I get told to do something I dont want to do, I dont do it. I notice this in work sometimes and I have a big internal conflict because I hate swallowing my pride and doing what I am told to. I like to be in control. I like to get my way. On the long trek they'll be good for me because well, I'm determined, independent, and I dont have to worry about controlling anyone but myself (sometimes it's harder controlling myself than controlling others!)

I hate Authority, rules, being told what to do.
So although I never saw it before, of course travelling on my own will be perfect. I can do whatever I want, I dont have to fight to get my way, it's all up to me. I dont need to run my plans by anyone or do stuff I dont want to do...


Next up: I'm selfish, arrogant, I talk too much. (Thanks Brian hehe.) It's true, I am :) AND EVERYONE knows it! But it goes back to the above qualities...it's all about me me me! But in a good way, I'm confident. I know I'll make friends, I know I'll meet people, and at the same time, I like time to myself. I like to do what I want when I want. Best of both worlds travelling alone really.

And: I'm unpredicatable and liable to go through a million mood swings a day, indecisive. Being indecisive allows for flexability. And if one minute I feel chatty and talkative, I can talk to strangers, if a few minutes later I want to be quiet and think, I can leave them and be on my own :) Travelling alone will ensure that my travel partner wont kill me --those were Brian's exact words :)

I'm stubborn, have to see things to believe them So if I'm alone, I can do things in my own time, judge whatever way I want, and make up my mind about a lot of things...

And Finally:

I play mind games. He never explained this one...he decided to play a mind game on me by letting me figure it out :) So I decided he meant a few things. A) I can quit playing mind games with him while I am gone and pick on someone else. hehe. B) I analyze things a lot...many long plane, train, and automobile trips will give me a lot of free time to think about everything. And the fact that there wont be anyone there I have to talk to means I can do all the reflecting I want (it's sad that I look forward to that...isn't it?!?) C) I can think of more negative qualities and make myself they are really postives :)

I'm sure there are many many many more negative qualities that could be discussed...but this is just a starter. Wait till you get me talking about my postives :) hehehe.

While we're on the subject, feel free to mention any more of my negative traits....(e.g: bitch freely about me!)

posted by Oreo @ 9:32 PM