Road Block!
Ok so here I am checking my email again...I'm in Surfers waiting for Rory to get off work and it's too hot to be outside so I am finding refuge in a cool internet cafe. I brought in a cd with pictures on it to upload onto my blog today..but the comptuer is so old that it wont do it! It's so frustrating! One of these days...I promise! Hahaha!
Anyway, I am still confused as to what I am doing in oz. I can head north to Cairns and go scuba diving and chill out on really cool islands and stuff like that...but there's been hurricanes up that way and that would mean a) less visibility in the water but more importantly b) shit weather if more cyclones come! Option 2 is make my way down the coast to Sydney, where I am meeting my sister in about 3 weeks. I already booked a flight from the Gold Coast to get me there but I can change that and use it to get me somewhere else...It's funny cuz I am smack bang in the middle between both Cairns and Sydney and dont know which way to head!
So I am spending time here wondering where the road will take me next. I feel so disoriented here because I have gotten used to NZ, to everything being smaller, closer, to having a bit of a plan...and now, I'm just here and dont really have a clue. It's nice in a way :) I like the thought that even
Idont know where I'll be next week :)
Hold in the tears and walk away
So I had to say goodbye to Will the other day. It was harder than I thought. The whole time I was with him we both knew that we had limited time...that we would have to say goodbye after 2 weeks....but we got so used to having each other around that not having him feels like I am missing an extension of my body. I dont have him sleeping next to me, eating with me, in the car with me... We were texting one another yesterday saying how much we missed each other....its strange. No one's ever come into my life and changed it in 2 weeks. Nothing's ever felt so right. I've never met anyone that just affected me as much as he has....I cant get him off my mind. I cant stop smiling thinking about him. I didnt stop smiling the whole 2 weeks I was with him....ahhhh it wrecks my head, because the last thing I want is to have fallen for someone who isn't around...but I think I'm in control enough of my emotions to be alright...
I'm in Oz now...with my friend Rory. It's strange. (Everything feels strange today...I need to use a new word!) I've been here 3 days and dont really know when I am leaving. I have no plan. dont know where i am going next. It's cool seeing rory...after 5 minutes things felt like I'd been here for weeks...things felt like we'd never been apart, even though its about a year since we last saw one another. Old friends are good :) BUT I havent seen that much of her. The whole time she's either been working or she gets home from work and her and her boyfriend just disappear into a room (they've been having break-up issues) and I just feel like I havent gotten to spend any time with her. And she's going back to Honduras in a month...and I might leave the gold coast next week and she's working the whole time and it just frustrates me feeling like I came to see her and I wont. I guess I am maybe feeling a little resentful. I have been hanging out with her friends more than her. When we do hang out, her boyfriend comes along and they act all coupley and I just wonder what I'm doing there...and why I didnt just go out with her flat mates instead. I guess I just need to vent and there's no one to talk to here.
So I dont know where I am going next...was thinking of cairns but there was a hurricane so it might not be a good idea...not really sure...ok i am getting sleepy, this place is too hot! hehe. thats it for now....
Alien Male Seaweed and Will
It's been a long time since I have last written and I am sorry about that.
Right now I should be in Melbourne enjoying the Commonwealth games which happened to co-incide with the dates I booked. Instead I am sitting in Arthur's Pass, aka middle of the mountains in New Zealand still! Ohh life is so unpredictable!
Sitting in Te Anau I was feeling quite pissed off--hung over, tired, cold, wet, grumpy....and this English guy got talking to me. We discussed how shit our hostel was and decided to go take a drive around the town since it was pouring rain. So we took a drive around, ended up in the pub, had a few drinks, and he convinced me to change my flights and join him! It was so crazy and random that I somehow knew it was right. I had just found out that the U2 concert was cancelled, so I had no rush to get to australia...and I dont know how he did it, i just knew it was right! So the next day I went kayaking in Milford sound, he drove 5 hours return to queenstown to get my backpack that I left there cuz I had only been planning on spending a night in te anau, and we met back at the hostel and the next morning went to stewart island!
Everything since has just been a whirlwind of experiences...it's strange travelling with someone after being alone for so long...and not just anyone. I dont know what Will is to me...he's my friend, my lover, my temporary boyfriend...I dont really know how I will feel when I leave in 3 days because we have literally spend 24 hours a day with one another for the past week. We have been in really remote places and hostels...on Stewart Island, the Catlins, and random places like arthur's pass. We havent really talked to anyone else other than one another and we are getting on amazingly! I havent once regretted changing my plans to travel with him, havent once wanted to be on my own. Even the bad times with him have been good. But spending so much time with him makes it hard to know how I feel about him. We've turned into such a couple and its so strange because it's only been a week but it feels like forever...
Anyway, so I leave in 3 days, he leaves in a week to MOVE to Hong Kong and we'll move on without each other. It will be interesting to see how I feel about that when the time comes.
So needless to say life is incredible. I wouldn't say I'm in love with Will because there hasn't been enough time for that. I'm certainly not. I am just fascinated by our relationship, by our interaction. I dont know many people who can put up with me 24 hours a day for over a week without getting a break from me or wanting to kill me...and this stranger stumbles into my life and he can!
What's most amazing is I was having a bad day when I met him...and I wrote in my journal about how I needed something amazing to happen, I needed something to pick me up.....
...four hours later I met someone who'll stay with me for life :)
You never do know what's around the corner.......
Shagfest
I am in Queenstown, which is like party capital of new zealand. I have
partied here more than ANYWHERE in my LIFE! This place is insane! I've never been anywhere where so much sex was being had! haha. Queenstown is just a place to party and get laid...and I'm not complaining :)
I have been out for 3 (or is it four...?) crazy nights in a row, and I am going out again tonight hehehe, i LOVE it :) I needa get out of this place before my
liver fails. This is seriously like my town, I feel like a local
hehe. I walk down the street and meet SO many people I know, or like
people shout out my name or 'shorty' 'shake' 'irish' 'bite' 'honduras'
or the million other random names I get called. Sometimes I recognize
the people, sometimes I dont hehe.
The last few mornings we all wake up and re-cap the night's action. Me and these 2 guys in my room, Dutchy and Gavin, go into the details of who and what and where hahaha. It can get very interesting. We've been friends ever since I was drunk and knocked on our door at 5 am my first night and Gavin had to get out of bed to let me in cuz I had no key hehehe.
I'm going to do the highest bungy jump in nz today! ohh I am getting excited...I feel so sick from drinking but I know I need to eat something before I do it...I purposely booked the latest time possible...which was 2 pm--still too early!
Anyway, like I said in a comment, I cant get pictures uploaded from these internet places...I will try and find somewhere, but believe me, there will be an over load when I do. Take my word though, i have some great pics :) Got a few of lawrence last night...he's not the most photogenic but still looks hot hehehe.
Ok apologies to anyone who got my email and is now reading this cuz I cut and pasted a bit and generally seem to be saying the same thing...sorry...it's too early after too late of a night :)
Nursing a hang over and inflated ego
Sometimes I underestimate myself :)
Mi blogged about a guy that she used to like and how nice it was to know that she was wanted a few days ago...and thats what I'm feeling today.
So I have finally gotten somewhere with the whole Lawrence thing. Since I met him I haven't been able to decide whether I like him or not...until we were out last night and sparks were flying and it was pretty much decided for me :)
In case any of you guys dont know--I have a major ego,I'm definitely not lacking any confidence. But Lawrence was one of those guys that you see and kinda think they will always be out of your league. I mean this guy is HOT. He's probably one of the sexiest guys I know. And I know hotties :) So even though I do have a mega ego, I still kinda thought I wouldn't try him because I didnt think I would get anywhere. But then when I realized that he DID want me I thought DAMN I'M HOT! haha. I think that enough anyway, but when you get chased by someone you thought wouldn't look twice at you, my ego gets inflated even more :) This could be dangerous!
*WARNING TO ALL GUYS IN NEW ZEALAND-RHONA'S OUT ON THE LOOSE AND HER EGO'S GROWING!*
Loadsa News!
I'm a long way from Picton where I last blogged from...Since then a LOT has happened...let me recap
I went sailing in Abel Tasman National Park, absolutely fantastic, the scenery was incredible! 'The scenery' includes Steve, the skipper of the boat...by the end of the day we had fallen in love but I had to go so life must go on right? Seriously though I spent the day helping him sail and talking to him while everyone else lay around on the catamaran, when we picked up passengers they thought I worked on the boat with him because we got on so well :)
Then I spent the night on a different boat and walked 3 hours on the abel tasman track, it was incredible, beach, rain forest, memories of steve hahaha.
Next from there was Barrytown--aka the middle of nowhere(population--50 at a stretch)! LITERALLY a one-bar town..and that was all there was--the bar doubled as the hostel/restaurant/non-broadband internet (didnt know ANYONE still used dial up! haha) But it was a good night, I played a few games of pool, watched the Crusaders (led by Dan Carter!) win a rugby match, had an amazing dinner, a lot of drinks, a lot of flirting with the latest guy, a south african who is amazingly hot and arrogant (the perfect recipe for a man I would love), and also met 2 english guys I had met in Taupo so we had a good ol laugh about what we've been up to. Since then I have also met them at Franz Josef, and today in Wanaka in Puzzling world...we were in this huge maze and ran in to eachother! Will probably see them here in Queenstown but i'm skipping ahead..
After Barrytown (affectionatly now known as barrycorner cuz it was so small it didnt deserve the name town) we went to Franz Josef and did a glacier hike...it was cool, but I'm maybe not so much of an ice person. I enjoyed it but I'd rather have been out sailing or something...oh well, it was a cool experience, and we slid through ice caves and saw lots of blue ice and stuff....pics will follow (I've been saying that a lot lately...). Last night there was an earthquake on the glacier...haha good thing i got out of there yesterday :) So all the hikes were cancelled for today...oh nature...
From there we had to stay in Haast. Literally did nothing..unpacked and re-packed my backpack to sort it out a bit...watched tv and talked to the gilrs in my room all night because it was PISSING down rain non stop from the afternoon on. we would have had a bonfire on the beach but it was too wet...
So then today we stopped in Wanaka, went to puzzle world which was so fun! just a place with a maze and lots of weird stuff (like a vertigo room, etc...) so that was fun and took tons of pics. Probably the best $10 i spent in nz! haha.
So now its Queenstown...it's raining a lot but hey that doesnt really matter...we've got a big piss-up planned tonight so who cares if its raining, we'll be drinking :) Still unsure about this lawrence guy, I cant decide if I love him or hate him...argh he gets on my nerves :) Tonight I will decide haha.
So thats it for now I am having a GREAT time, dont want to leave but sadly only a week left...just enough time to party here for a few days, head to milford, and see from there....On to Australia next...I dont want to leave New Zealand :( It could be worse though...I could be headed home hahaha. NO WAY!
This was a pretty decent post :) I pat myself on the back! haha, it's raining...I have nothing else to do :) My pics are being uploaded on to a cd now, so I promise...a few days and there'll be hundreds of pics up here :)
