Paradise
Today I'm in paradise but far from it. I'm in Airlie Beach, which seriously is a paradise. I'm surrounded by crystal clear water, sail boats, a lagoon :) There is no where I would rather be physically. Mentally is another story. I'm still in this little funk of mine...I know I will get out of it soon because it cant last forever...I just want to be antisocial...I want to sit on my own and feel sorry for myself hahaha. At least I am honest about it :) I try to get all this man stuff out of my head but it's very much there...he's been haunting my dreams...its annoying. But in a week I'll be fine again :) Thanks for all the input guys, it means a lot...especially when I am so far from ANYONE I know and have no one to really talk to this about. I think if Rory where he and we sat down, had a drink, talked about it and I just got it all off my chest I'd be fine, its just the fact that its in my head and I cant get rid of it that I keep dwelling on it. But yeah, a week and this will be history!Anyway yesterday i spent a while doing what i used to love, reading all my friends's blogs! it was so nice just to get insight into their lives and thoughts again! it made me really miss getting home from work and sitting listening to music on my laptop and clicking through the usuals in my favourites..andy's, mi's, kate's, david's and other ones that got thrown in as well! You guys all got me through a really hard part of my life and I wouldn't be here with all the comments and jokes and posts and positive mental attitudes I got :) Thanks guys....
To be honest i hadnt even THOUGHT about my blog in about a month...I totally forgot about it...now it is back in my head and I will try to write regular posts again. my camera's broken and hopefully on its way to the camera factory where i will get a new one...or my old one fixed..i dunno, whatever..as long as i get SOMETHING! so for now i am sporting around a disposible one (yes they still actually MAKE disposable ones!) which is gay so i'm not taking half the pics i normaly would. i have been thinking of buying a new camera but i am NOT made of money right now so maybe not.
I might go on a 3 day sailing trip tomorrow...I havent paid for it yet though so I will go see what I can find...not sure what the weather will be liek its a bit rainey today,mayeb sailing isnt the best idea! I will keep you all updated anyway.
Thanks guys!
posted by Oreo @ 4:06 AM
3 Comments:
Airlie Beach is a wonderful place. But there are far too many people from the UK there (seriously!). I forget that it is in Australia!!!
Look, I know exactly where you are coming from because I was there in 2001. I met Ali while travelling, then when i came back to see him, I was given nothing. Infact, I suffered massive degrees of humiliation as a result of his behviour - which I somehow tried to justify for the next couple of years. Then I worked out that I simply did not have the answers to excuse his behaviour. It was bad behaviour, and that's all I needed to have realised, instead of over-anaylsing it for years to come. You cant spend your life trying to excuse or work out the behaviour of another person who, no matter how much time you spent with him, you may not really truly know. Even though you lived and breathed each other for weeks, you still never got to see sides of him which he may now be showing. This could be the real Rune. And you may never know why.
Hun, as hard as it is to accept, its best to move on. You're young and free. The best way to be.
hugs to you oreo!!!
Ok it's out of my system..I am better now! Thanks! :)
What would I do without you guys!?!?!
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