Splashing In Puddles of Sand

Cowboy Up!

I guess I'm at a crossroads right now and I need to decide what to do....I've been waiting for someone to join me on my 'adventures' for a couple months now. I finally found Brian but he's still got college so that rules him out. Everyone else either has jobs or college or tend to flake out too much. I'm sick of waiting around for someone to get on the same page as me so I think I am ready to just get up and go.

I know that I am a very well-travelled person. I've been to so many places that sometimes I forget about all the places I've been. I *LOVE* to travel! I love seeing new places and new cultures and things that you have never seen before and may never see again. I lvoe the feeling of being somewhere completely new. One thing I have never done on all my travels though, is travel alone. Sure I've taken plane trips through China to Australia, and I've bussed up from Costa Rica to Honduars on my own, but like, real hardcore travelling on my own, with no one with me from departure to arrival...that's something foreign to me.

I'm scared that I wont be able to do it. I dont know why...because I know along the way I'll meet people and I'll still have fun but I like security, and I like friendship. I like the security of travelling with a friend, from getting drunk on boring train rides to laughing ourselves stupid remembering crazy stories, even just to have someone to lean on while I sleep on the bus...I want a travel buddy!

But it doesn't look like I have one at the moment, so I'm at a crossroads. It would be so easy for me to say I'll wait for someone to finally decide they want to quit their job/have enough money/have enough time off college to come with me, but I dont want to look back at my life and wish I had done everything I wanted to. I dont want to regret waiting around for someone to hold my hand. I'm not 7 years old anymore I want to face the world and I SHOULD! I want to be brave and pretend I'm not scared, but this IS something I want to do, and I dont want to be held back by anyone, and especially not by NO ONE!!! So I'm majorly going to think about this for a few weeks.

I had been planning on going down to Australia/New Zealand in March. I was going to do both the Kiwi islands first, on my own, then head up to OZ and travel around with Rory. But today Rory told me she's heading to Japan mid-February to teach English! So she wants me to come in December and then travel through asia with her in February. So that changed all my plans...December is too soon and I dont wnat to squeeze everything into 6 weeks.

So I was distressed this morning trying to figure things out...right now I am thinking of possibly going to Asia first with rory for about a month, then heading to NZ then Oz.

But on my own!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

Ahh....I need some guidance :)

posted by Oreo @ 8:54 PM