Urkel Dorky vs. Cosby Cool
In my head I'm the coolest person alive. I mean I use phrases like 'too cool for school' and actually think that I can get away with saying such a dorky phrase. hehe. I really do think I'm 'all that.'I don't know where I got so delusional though! Maybe I just fooled myself into loving myself when no one else would. haha. Then sometimes I think of things I do and I realize I am such a dork. I (secretly) love Ryan Cabrera (ok, now it's not a secret anymore...). I think Scrabble is the coolest board game ever (but then again, I'm fond of dirty scrabble so that makes me cool again!) Hmm...I cant think of any of my other dorky traits...But there are some. Everyone's got their 'guilty dorky pleasures' I guess...or else I'm saying that to redeem myself!
There's a saying something along the lines of 'one person's trash is another person's treasure' (something like that--that's the Rhona-version!)...So I figure one person's dorkiness is another person's-umm-coolness.
Without trying to sound obsessive, psychotic or stalker-like, I need to mention Zach Braff. He's a prime example to all this! He is SUCH a dork, I used to watch Scrubs and think he was SO dorky. But after Garden State and getting my hands on anything and everything involving him, I feel like I understand him. I guess I just feel like our reasoning is similar. So I discovered his dorkiness is his coolness. It makes him who he is. It makes him cool and individual and unique and creative and sexy. It makes him him.
So maybe embracing our differences, our quirkiness (is that a word?)is key. Which is a funny thing for me to realize because I don't tend to like weird, quirky people. I think they are freaks, and they are attention seeking or overly trying to make a statement (and yes, I AM a very judgemental person!). And I've always felt the need to blend in with strangers, not wanting to stand out. That's my whole fitting issue which I could write a book on. haha. Obviously not a good book because I'm still dealing with it...
I guess my POINT is that I'm a pretty confident person. I care more about what I think about myself then what other people think. But, in saying that, I still dont let everyone see the real me. I dont know if it's to do with my confidence, with blending in, or with rejection. It just takes a lot for me to be myself. I can be relaxed and I can be fun and I can sometimes be myself, but it's not often that I can be me all the time.
One of my closest friends once pointed out that she had never seen me cry (in about 5 years of very close frienship). I guess I can open up to some people but not others. I can be myself with some people, but not with everyone...but now I need to stop because I feel like I'm opening up too much :)
I dont know if I have a point anymore. That I am cool. Of course, that's the obvious one. Maybe that not everyone is what they seem to be on the outside. Maybe that we shouldn't judge as quickly as we tend to. Maybe that our individuality is our key to succeeding together. Maybe that true love is out there (ok I didn't talk about that at all today but I would still like to believe it...). Maybe that what one person (even you) finds dorky/boring/ridiculous/pathetic or just plain wierd is what another person will find intersting/cool/fun/amazing or just absolutely perfect :)
posted by Oreo @ 10:08 PM
0 Comments:
Post a Comment
<< Home