Time Of My Life
I'm having the time of my life right now :) This is one of those
moments where I sit back and look at my life and think that it
couldn't be any better...I feel like the luckiest person on earth
right now. I've spent the last 4 months doing what some people see as
nothing...but to me, it's been everything. I do what I want, when I
want, with whom I want. Total FREEDOM. My mind has been opened up to
so many different situations, people, places, experiences....wow. I am
in awe of everything.
I just dont even know where to start explaining what's going on in my
life. I went sailing for 3 days on a boat called Spank Me :) Since
then 7 of us went camping for 4 nights...the first night in a national
park where we bbqd in the dark and played card games all night, then
we went to an island where we did the same but on a beach! We had
possums climbing all over our tents, walllabies hopping around us, and
how could I forget the mosquitos! hehe.
Now I'm in cairns and I'm going to dive the great barrier reef for the
next week. Then I'm going down to work in the snowy mountains for ski
season! It just doesnt seem like my life...it's so...eventful :) I
love it.
So, this is an honest honest honest attempt at NOT making you
jealous. I'm not trying to gloat about how great things are for me...I
just want to catch you up on places that i've been and share my 'i love life' attitude! I hope I can send some of that out to you guys with this post!
Wishing you were here to experience this as well....
Rho :)
Wandering Soul
So last night I REALLY didnt want to go out...I havent been in a drinking sort of mood for the last week (my liver needs a rest!), but I had promised this guy Rich I met here I'd go out and he knew I'd bail out so I went just to prove him wrong! Haha!
So I started the night in a bar with Rich, I left the first bar with 3 english guys he introduced me to, we went to an Irish bar. Rich shows up, he made a move, I wasn't interested, we bitched it out (andy! i miss entourage!). I pulled out the 'it's not you it's me line' haha cheesy but it IS me that has serious issues :) Eventually I leave, pissed off that AGAIN men always end up being MEN and they're not capable of being satisfied with being FRIENDS with a hot girl :) Urgh! So I get about 1 minute down the road, get talking to these irish lads! So we bitch about stupid english people for a while, then go BACK to the irish bar where I had left Rich haha. Very spiteful of me to show up with 2 new guys but what the hell, he lived up to his name and was being a dick :) After a drink I leave Irish guys cuz I spot Joe the travel dude. So I flirt with him for a while...somehow end up getting free drinks from the bar tender for the rest of the night...quite a sweet deal considering I didnt even really talk to him :) Woohoo! I head across the street to the club, back with the Irish guys AND Joe, more drinks, a bit of dancing, Rich is there, make him jealous for being such an asshole by dancing with one of the original english guys that he introduced me to. Eventually leave the club with English dude, he's walking me home, we run into Rich again, I leave them both and go home hahaha.
Last night was some sort of a revolving door of men! When I woke up and started remembering it all I made myself dizzy trying to figure out where I left everyone/found everyone.
I woke up today having to drag myself up, serioulsy hung over, to check out of my hostel. I still feel sick...I have to get on a boat in 2 hours. I'm on internet because it was the nearest place with a seat haha. The room is currently spinning. It's not my imagination...
Anyway, that's my crazy night :) And the bet is still intact...I am staying away from men! haha
Hot Guys Hit On Me
Jejeje, like the subject? :D It's true! I've been on Airlie beach for
4 days now, waiting for the weather to clear up so I can go sailing
the Whitsundays...it's like a world heritage sight so its gotta be
good! and its sailing...my future passion (when i find a man who has
a super cool boat and sail the world with him!) for now i have to pay
to sail. BUT i was randomley walking down the street and this guy
started talking to me and he works in a travel agency and he gave me a
huge discount. so i leave tomorrow! hehehe. and later the girl at the
boat place was like 'the prices are usualy non-negociable...the guy
must have really liked you'. He did :) His name is Joe, and we're
going for drinks when I get back on Monday :) BUT here's the rub (where
would we be without shakespeare!)--I've sworn off men. And I think I
have started the bet as well...i already bet with my friend rory that i can stay
away from then for 2 months. That was before Joe...but I am determined
to stick with it. hehe. Oh well...I will see...who knows, there could
be hot guys on the boat as well :)
Ahh...this is why I swore of men in the first place...to keep them out
of my head! haha! So anyway, life is good...I have been feeling a
little flu-ey so i stayed sober last night (yes you heard
correctly--rhona+sober in the same sentence!) i am supposed to be
going out tonight with a guy i've been hanging out here called rich
but i kinda want to bail. i will see how i feel later. so yeah i am
going sailing for 3 days woohoo! i have stocked up on wipeout
(australia's cheap version of malibu) because i'm trying to make my
money last as long as...i was so tempted to buy absolut
mandarin...mmmmmm!!!! (It holds special meaning for me and rory--many a drunken day on the gold coast spent drinking absolut)
Anyway, I am being a real cop-out and this was actualy an email I sent to a select-few, but time is limited and it said everything i had to say so I tought I would post it! I have well and truely gotten back in to blogging now...it's been what 4 days in a row :) That'll all change when I'm sailing cuz--duh--middle of the ocean...but I will update when I get back!
Life is good again, my head is cleared and no more stresses are dragging me down. It's amazing how much differnce a week can do...a week and some positive comments from friends :)
Hope everyone finds the time to let their mind sail away a little bit over the next few days :) My mind hasn't touched ground in a long time hehehe...my imagination's on a never-ending flight!
Paradise
Today I'm in paradise but far from it. I'm in Airlie Beach, which seriously is a paradise. I'm surrounded by crystal clear water, sail boats, a lagoon :) There is no where I would rather be physically. Mentally is another story. I'm still in this little funk of mine...I know I will get out of it soon because it cant last forever...I just want to be antisocial...I want to sit on my own and feel sorry for myself hahaha. At least I am honest about it :) I try to get all this man stuff out of my head but it's very much there...he's been haunting my dreams...its annoying. But in a week I'll be fine again :) Thanks for all the input guys, it means a lot...especially when I am so far from ANYONE I know and have no one to really talk to this about. I think if Rory where he and we sat down, had a drink, talked about it and I just got it all off my chest I'd be fine, its just the fact that its in my head and I cant get rid of it that I keep dwelling on it. But yeah, a week and this will be history!
Anyway yesterday i spent a while doing what i used to love, reading all my friends's blogs! it was so nice just to get insight into their lives and thoughts again! it made me really miss getting home from work and sitting listening to music on my laptop and clicking through the usuals in my favourites..andy's, mi's, kate's, david's and other ones that got thrown in as well! You guys all got me through a really hard part of my life and I wouldn't be here with all the comments and jokes and posts and positive mental attitudes I got :) Thanks guys....
To be honest i hadnt even THOUGHT about my blog in about a month...I totally forgot about it...now it is back in my head and I will try to write regular posts again. my camera's broken and hopefully on its way to the camera factory where i will get a new one...or my old one fixed..i dunno, whatever..as long as i get SOMETHING! so for now i am sporting around a disposible one (yes they still actually MAKE disposable ones!) which is gay so i'm not taking half the pics i normaly would. i have been thinking of buying a new camera but i am NOT made of money right now so maybe not.
I might go on a 3 day sailing trip tomorrow...I havent paid for it yet though so I will go see what I can find...not sure what the weather will be liek its a bit rainey today,mayeb sailing isnt the best idea! I will keep you all updated anyway.
Thanks guys!
MEN-TAL ILLNESS!
Today I'm tired...tired of the same old nothingness. I'm tired of getting on the road, starting something new, something amazing, something I could never have imagined being so good. Then it all goes down. It all collapses. It makes no sense to me. How do I get everything that I have ever wanted and it just slips through my fingers?
Relationships are
so *FUCKED UP!*. I'm over it all...I want to become a hermit. Or a lesbian haha. I want to stay away from men. After Will I knew I needed a break...I just wanted to be on my own and steer clear of men. Then Rune came along and I realized he was the only guy other than Brian who actually lived up to ALL of my standards! Since it was only the second time in 21 years a guy like this has come along I threw my singledom plan out the window and went with it. But he's complicated. So there were ups and downs and finally something comes of it...the day before I am set to leave....with no idea when I am coming back. But it was all good and after I get back from Fiji we finally have a full 48 hours of JUST the 2 of us, something we've never had before, and it was amazing. It could really work between us! But like I said, i had to leave so he takes me to the train station and we stand kissing goodbye in true hopeless-romantic fairytale style.
But NOW...after all that perfectness...NOTHING. I understand that men DO this..but I dont understand
WHY. I dont see how they can just shut people out of their minds without a second thought. Will did the same thing to me for like a week...I heard nothing. No "how are you", no "i miss you" nothing. And it pisses me off. And now Rune's doing the same thing and I hate justfiying it and saying "well he's a guy so he is gonna do this". And I hate how guys justify it by saying htey had to do it, or it was too hard or shit...dont they realize how shit it is to be the girl, questioning why you've just been shut out after things went so well?!?!?!?!
I'm used to men. I'm used to them acting like this. brian's the only guy i can think of that never acted like this...but he's a freakish exception to all the rules. So why do men do this?
ANY body know? I want to know for peace of mind...it doesnt really matter though...I'm staying away from men...FOR GOOD (let's see how long this lasts...one day, two...maybe a week?)
Email Update...
Ok so here's that long awaited update!
I got back from Fiji a couple of days ago...I decided I wanted to stay
here for a year so i had to leave to get my working holiday visa. So I
spent a great week lying on the beach, snorkelling, drinking, you know
how it goes. A 7.1 earthquake hit near fiji while I was there...we
didnt feel it or anything but there were all these crazy tsunami
warnings. It was an interesting experince...sitting on an island in
the middle of the south pacific. It takes 2 hours to walk around mana
island...there's one little hill...so basically, if a tsunami came
we'd a) see it coming and b) not be able to escape. So we sat on the
beach and went on with our lives...it was cool. And I thought I was
laid back...haha, they fully beat me..they dont even care about the
tsunami warnings! But yeah, life went on, no tsunami came...I did a
bit of island hopping and had a great time! Ohh we went snorkelling
out on a reef, and we saw like a 5 foot shark swimming below us and
the fijians were all like 'yeah it's cool, lets just keep
snorkelling...if it swims towards you swim away and start praying...'
haha. Island attitudes are great!
So now i'm back in australia. I spent a couple nights at Rune's and
now I'm heading up towards Cairns...dont really have a plan at
all...i'm in noosa now. just taking things as they come...hop on a bus
here, hop off a bus there...whatever i feel like! I've got a few
people to meet up with along the way, gavin from new zealand and ben
who lives in cairns, so it's cool to know there's people waiting for
me somewhere!
So life right now's really up in the air....Rory and I were talking
about moving to sydney when she gets back end of July, so for now I'm
on my own, going wherever I feel like...quite liberating
really...especialy considering how big Australia is. So I'm back to
wandering on my own...I love it :) I'm on my way slowly to cairns to
go scuba diving...see if I can find more shark encounters!
Hope everyone's doing well! Let me know whats going on...wherever you
all are!!! Cheers!