Everyone's Lonely...
Everyone around me at the moment seems lonely. They all seem home sick or lonely or just needy in some way. Its strange. I suppose big cities can be like that. I dont recall any other places I have been where so many people have been feeling like this.I'm not feeling lonely, I am feeling broke. I have never been broke in my life, thanks to my parents. But as much as I have wanted to do this on my own I haven't been able to. I had to borrow money from them--which I never even got to see cuz it went to pay off my debts. I still have lots more to pay off. I was thinking about how much I have to pay for my loan and every month it is like 2 weeks pay here, then by the time I pay rent, food, transport and fun of course, I wont get to save any money. Kind of disheartening. So I have to pay off the debts before I can save to go travelling again. And then I will have to buy new flights. AHHH!!! I am starting to stress about it. I cant afford to just work to have enough money to live on I need savings as well to carry on travelling.
My flights back to Ireland expire in December. But my mum said she'd pay for my flights if I want to go to Honduras for Christmas cuz the whole family will be there and they all want me to join them. I dont think I will be ready to leave in december, but although i quickly ruled it out I am starting to consider it now. It would be good to surprise everyone. Just tell my mum and thats it. But I wont be ready to go. But I cant afford to stay I dont think. I dont want to stay only to have to slave for 4 months to buy a ticket home, and not get to do any extra travelling. i hate all these money issues. I have been eyeing up my credit card. I have never gotten in to credit card debt. But I think I will start soon.
Money is a problem. I can make enough to live on and save, but not enough to live on, save and pay off my loan. I hate it...
posted by Oreo @ 2:56 AM
1 Comments:
Gosh, that is so true. Whenever I travel, I always come across people who are "lonely". However, you will find that a lot of the "lonely" people are the ones that chose to travel on their own in the first place. You see, when we choose to travel alone, we know that there will be bouts of loneliness, but we also know what there are a lot of positives to getting out there alone - the independance, the freedom. Its only during the low times that we realise just how lonely a journey we really are taking. Add the "famous backpacker money problems" and it can get you down. But its all about picking yourself up and remembering that you ARE out there doing in. And you can see yourself changing, day by day. Each of those days wont be rosy, but hey, not every day back home would have been anyway.
Get out there, girl. :)
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