Splashing In Puddles of Sand

Ready Willing and Able

This subject means a lot of different things to me. Some meanings are light-hearted, funny inside jokes from high school. They remind me of the days when it was easy...Everything was so easy.

But like everything does, the phrase has changed meanings. It has evolved and grown and become a million different things at a million different times to me.

Today I realized it is actually quite appropriate to how I am feeling. I have finally grown enough to appreciate what it is saying. It was always a joke to me, nothing serious, but today it dawned on my that it is quite fitting to this stage of my life. I am ready willing and able. For everything. To take on the world. To take on myself. And others. Everything.

At times I have been ready, other times willing, though seldomley able I would say. But never all three at once. Suddenly this silly old saying that has been with me for the past 6 years has lit up like a light bulb over my head. So much is changing and my life is solely in my own hands and I cherish every second of that. I love it. I am alive. I feel fully alive. I am responsible for myself. No one is supporting me, holding my hand, telling me what to do, checking up on me. I only do what I want to. And I am thriving. It is glorious. I don't know how to explain how it is that I feel. Growing up I was always quite independent, my parents were good like that, they let me be. But this is real independence, unlike anything I have ever known.

I have been away for 8 months now, and I am still learning something new every day. Still cherishing every second of it. My life in Sydney could possibly be the best that it has ever been. And its got so much to do with my mind developing, with learning, with becoming more enlightened. It sounds ridiculous to a certain extent, but I do feel like I am becoming enlightened.

posted by Oreo @ 1:06 PM