Me me me and my globe-trotting
Here's an excerpt from an email I wrote to a few of my friends today...it sums up how I am feeling :)....Ahh...It's so weird. For so long I have been feeling so lost, not knowing where I am in life and where I am going but I have finally realized one thing. none of it matters. I am FREE. I can do what I want, when I want, I can go where I want and with whom I want and I don't need to stop and ask for permission, or ask if someone wants to come, or see if anyone minds that i am going....it's me me me. And although that might seem very well, me, this is the first time in twenty one years that everything, and I mean EVERYTHING is up to me. I don't need to run it by my parents...i'm now financially independent. I don't need to wait for time off college, I have my degree (my graduation is on monday!), i don't need to run it by work, screw them, i am just there to get paid so i can save to go away!!!!! I don't have to worry about leaving my boyfriend/fiance/husband (haha if only i could have all 3 at once!) or leaving my kids at home...or worry about taking them with me.
For so many years (actually not so much anymore, but let's not go there) Rhona has been in the middle of the universe. But this the first time I am legitimately there. My life is in my own hands. I do with it what I want. And that, my friends, is the most amazing, empowering feeling in the world.
Rhona...all grown up.
posted by Oreo @ 6:03 PM
3 Comments:
Ahhh... the joy that hits you when you realise just how powerful "choice" can be. For so many years, we are told about the "rules of life".
1. You need to get financially stable as soon as possible;
2. You need to find a stable relationship as soon as possible;
3. You need to enter a profession/career as soon as possible;
4. You need to make "sensible" decisions as soon as possible;
5. You need a set of stable, secure friends around you.
All of these rules are made to give human beings security. No one likes to leave life to chance, because they cant "control it". And when humans feel out of "control", along comes fear, and soon enough they are unhappy. Why? Because they dont have belief in themselves. They dont have the confidence to believe that "it doesnt matter what happens, I will land on my own two feet."
That has been the saying that has gotten me through my decisions lately. "It doesnt matter what happens, i WILL land on my own two feet." People forget that, because they spend their lives making everything AROUND them secure, rather than believing THEY themselves have the ability to survive.
Rhona, whatever comes your way, whether positive or negative, you WILL land on your two feet. Dont let those that dont believe in their OWN ability to survive hold you back. I guarantee that in twenty years time, you will be richer than them. And I am not talking financially. I am talking about the wealth of experience and knowledge.
*kate now crosses her legs and sings "kumbaya my lord"*
hehehe
My work for the day is done.
K
all grown up, eh?
best wishes on your trip. i wish i could go as well.
man, i wish i had my stupid university degree.. haha!
i like that prima...
damn school, it gets on the way of my education.
it totally does, too, doesn't it?
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